Oh god why

Malam ini super annoying buat gw.  I caused it and im dealing with it. I feel my body hurts. I feel confused. Im physically tired.

Setelah gw coba telaah,  sepertinya gw  frustrasi. Banyak hal yang gw pengenin malam ini, tp gw belum bisa mendapatkan itu. ID gw lagi sangar banget malam ini.  Superego gw melemah.  Ego gw nangis2 karena di poke terus sama si ID.

I want to sleep, i want to runaway but someone nags me. Maybe i should sleep. Maybe..

Before i sleep, i want to ask you a question. How do you manage being alone without feeling lonely?

Theres one small part of me wanting to be somewhere only i know. But then again, there are hundreds of reasons not to be there.

Have a nice sleep, interesting people.

Val's update 27 Februari 2016

I stumbled upon my L friend's facebook. I read her posts and they were kinda sad and devastated. I sometimes open fb group or friends' fb just to make me feel good about myself. Salah gw kalau postingan lo menye-menye? *empati gw kayaknya lagi abis*

As far as I can remember, I no longer post about my "way too personal" emotion on social media. Kalau bocor, berarti emang gw udah ga tahan banget untuk venting. Gw mikirnya begini. Gw temenan sama kolega dan bahkan bos gw di FB, twitter, path dan instagram. Kalau gw masih posting status kurang menyenangkan perihal kerjaan satu maupun kerjaan lainnya, nanti yang bisa bikin orang offended. My tips are keep your emotional quotes to yourself. no matter how inspiring they are. Because in the end, nobody cares. even if they care a bit, they cannot do much about it.

Alright, mari bahas agenda hari ini:
1. Bikin laporan kine feb + upload
2. Rapiin laporan kine jan + upload
3. Design kegiatan gathering vol eos
4. bikin doodle batch 4 wawancara vol eos
5. rapiin laporan aceh - film pendek
6. prepare untuk wawancara eos vol Minggu.

Apalagi ya? I guess i need to start working on my task now~

have a wonderful day, people. Here is one sexy potato.

Ternyata masih~

 

Kadang yang lo pengenin itu ga selalu kesampean.  Tapi mungkin pas lo udah ga pengen pengen banget, lo malah ngedapetin hal itu. 

Yaudah didoain aja. Biar bisa emotionally content. 

Mantan

Karena gw baru aja mimpiin mantan, gw musti nulis soal MANTAN. Tadi sore udah kepikiran  draftnya tapi belum ada niatan nulis. Berhubung gw barusan mimpi ngeri-serem dan cameonya mantan gw, I need to vent.

Settingannya di hotel di Jakarta. Karena gw lagi sibuk warawiri, gw nginep di hotel untuk beberapa hari walau gw sempet balik juga ke rumah. Then it got darker gegara ada temen yang bilang di kamar gw ada syaitonnya. Terus di hotel itu anehnya ada games macem di dufan gitu. Somehow we played those games biar bisa keluar dari hotel laknat itu. Again, banyak syaiton sliweran. Terus tiba2 mantan gw ada. Gw ga tau dia dateng darimana terus dia juga langsung hilang gitu aja. Tapi kehadiran dia membuat nyaman sih. Dan kayaknya dia cabut gitu aja naik gojek. Ahahaha, apa sih absurd banget.

Beberapa hari yang lalu emang sempet ngewhatsapp perkara harta gono gini sih (barangmu di aku, barangku di kamu) untungnya gw 3,5 thn pacaran ga sempet DP apa2, reksadana naneno, atau plan a vacation trip this year. Makanya ga rempong. Dan dia memang dingin. Ngomong seadanya. Mungkin memang sebaiknya seperti ini.

_daripada jadi draft, mending dipublish aja_

Val's Update 12/16/15

Its been too long since i posted my last post. Well, just  a quick update wont hurt, I suppose. Gw sekarang lagi beresin external harddisk gw. Gw beresin music foldernya dulu dan diurutin based on the singers. But i stumbled upon one folder, vn. It was my voice notes folder yang isinya suara 03(6)1. Kangen sih. But yeah,this voice notes got to go *click delete*
Not that Im erasing 0361 from my memory, but the files are not relevant anymore thus they need to go. *click empty recycle bin* Alrighty, im gon check the rest of the music folders. 8.33pm.

it is 09.03pm. Im a bit happy to waste 30 minutes of my life just to sort my music. Its a good thing since I can have time for myself. Biasanya jam segini gw masih di kantor, doing report or whatever. Well, 2015 adalah tahun tersibuk gw. Which is good. Tapi efek buruknya ya itu, i gave up my social life for work. Maybe its my way of running away from life, from "kapan (kita) nikah?".

Just an update, I'm currently single. I broke up with bear on April 2015. I broke up with Diamond around September 2015. Citra guessed that I was too busy and she was damn right. Im too busy doing what excites me. I love my job. I love what I do. Kinda feel lonely at times but that's alright since I do not have time to sob and cry. Everything goes so fast. I learned how to prepare an event from a month or better, a week before. Once the event was done, it took 3 until 7 days for the reporting period. The phase is too fast, its super challenging.

This photo was taken last year (loop kepo winners from other cities). Guess Im a happier person now. Makin gendut sih pastinya. Hihi, Thats about it for tonight. Mari kembali bekerja~~~

Tarot dan Tiga Malam yang Berantakan

Mulut gw gatel banget pengen bahas bacaan tarot gw yang ternyata bukan tentang gw.

Dan 3 malam (sabtu,minggu dan senin) gw yang berantakan. Blame it on the *pfft*

Line

Gw lagi nungguin line dari seorang teman. Really urgent. Signal di Kendari sucks bingits.

Trus tiba-tiba ada notifikasi line masuk.

Pas gw check..

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